Sick of all the insincere.

you'll prob all think i'm some kinda completely depressed person :L
which i'm not. i just always come on here when something is bothering me.


Before i start * Secrets - One Republic.
LISTEN to it.

anyways.. yer so the reason i am upset is that guy i was talking about before.
he's always insulting me.. or swearing at me + it's really starting to get to me.
he's the most pathetic looking thing ever + he's stuck up + thinks he's better than everyone else.
he never ever gets in to trouble for it because the teachers think that everyone 'bullies him because he is 'different' haaaaa.
i sound so immature i know, but that's the way it is, and tbh it's unfair.
why should we be treated differently to him ?

i really have tried being nice to him but i really do just give up.
he just has one of those faces you want to punch so hard.
he's just ruined my whole day + made me all angry
+ as a result of that i have now argued with my parents who call me 'out of control'


i know i am though + that's the worst thing ever.
knowing you're f***ed up + there's nothing you can do to change it.
it's just awful.

and then having to hide that depressed side of you to others.. so they don't look at you different.
because people say they won't treat you differently no matter what.
but if someone tells you they're suicidal.. or have some serious medical condition .. you'll never look at them in the same way again. + i don't want that.
i want to appear normal. i want to be normal. i want to cheer up.
i want to not have suicidal thoughts every single time i'm upset.
i've just had such enough.


uckk.. anyways, sorry too deep rightt.
questionn of the post :D.. or whatever i called it last time :L
[ the :L by the way.. if you've never used IM, is a laughing face.. you'll have to get used to it i use it often]
so yer, see now my bf has text me all happy... + i want to be happy with him.. but i just can't.

yer.. question.. if you could be anyone.. who + why ?

i'd be Kate Winslet.. because i think she's just amazing.. although my bf disagrees.

i better go though. Francais Devoirs.
that's the only word i can say in french.. and my exam is in a few weeks.. haa, oh well :D
have a nice evening.
S.